When I am up late a night and unable to sleep. I often think about all the things I could/should do. I have many ambitions, and I always have. The main one used to be to leave Orkney and get away from living a life under the microscope. I would pack up and leave tomorrow… Continue reading Ambition
There is a saying " The only thing worse than being alone and lonely is being surrounded by people and feeling lonely". I often think that should be the epitaph on my gravestone. I know that sounds morbid but living a life blighted by chronic illness is pretty morbid. You are on a constant journey… Continue reading Solitary Confinement
Not only am I grieving for my old self. I am grieving the loss of those friends that have slowly slipped away from my grasp. Like sand, through my fingers, people have slipped away from me since I became chronically ill. It isn't catching! I am still the same person who you have known for… Continue reading Lost friendships
There are many things I do to try and make me feel fulfilled. Losing my job has left a big hole. So I have tried to find coping mechanisms to help me fill the hole. One of the first things I did was take up Roller Derby, I'd always loved roller skating so I thought… Continue reading Fulfilment
That's about all I have to say........Each and every day I feel unfulfilled and like each day is a waste. I love my children but my job gave me a real sense of identity and I had that ripped away by people that I trusted to look after me. When the chips were down, I… Continue reading Unfulfilled and wasted
Orkney Fibromyalgia Sufferer 