chronic fatigue, Chronic illness, Fibromyalgia, insomnia

Unfulfilled and wasted

I'm in a state of unfulfillmentThat’s about all I have to say……..Each and everyday I feel unfulfilled and like each day is a waste. I love my children but my job gave me a real sense of identity and I had that ripped away by people that I trusted to look after me. When the chips were down, I no longer counted. A hard lesson, one of my hardest yet. As my mum always told me “The graveyard is full of indispensable people”.

Since I lost my job I feel inadequate, like damaged goods. My job meant a lot to me and I was proud to have accomplished what I had there. I progressed from a Postal Cadet to part of the management team. I gave that place my all for almost 16 years. To say I feel betrayed would be an understatement.

I am constantly on the look out for a new job but I am also scared of getting one and going through the torture that I went through with my previous employer. I want to be my own boss but that one isn’t so easy. I’ve had lots of ideas but none that I think I can make money from. Maybe I should study employment law so I can help other people like me.

Being unemployed for a year certainly hasn’t done me any good. It has done me more harm than anything else. Physically and psychologically.

All is it done is reinforce my distrust in others. Nobody is who they seem.

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