Throughout my life, I have never belonged and always felt like I am just not quite good enough. I got no praise or encouragement as a child or an adolescent. I never belonged to a clique or a group. I just floated about from place to place never really being included, just ignored or bullied.… Continue reading Just not quite good enough……?
Here I am again with lots of time on my hands and I think to myself maybe I should see losing my job as an opportunity to do something else. The only problem(s) with that is when you have worked in the same place for nearly 16 years it is really difficult to adjust to… Continue reading The world is my oyster……?
When I am up late a night and unable to sleep. I often think about all the things I could/should do. I have many ambitions, and I always have. The main one used to be to leave Orkney and get away from living a life under the microscope. I would pack up and leave tomorrow… Continue reading Ambition
There is a saying " The only thing worse than being alone and lonely is being surrounded by people and feeling lonely". I often think that should be the epitaph on my gravestone. I know that sounds morbid but living a life blighted by chronic illness is pretty morbid. You are on a constant journey… Continue reading Solitary Confinement
Not only am I grieving for my old self. I am grieving the loss of those friends that have slowly slipped away from my grasp. Like sand, through my fingers, people have slipped away from me since I became chronically ill. It isn't catching! I am still the same person who you have known for… Continue reading Lost friendships
Orkney Fibromyalgia Sufferer 