Every morning when I wake up and every night when I am trying to sleep. Thoughts go round and round in my head. One of the many questions I ask myself is, what do I do that is productive? And each time I have the same answer - Nothing. I still feel this way despite… Continue reading Self – worth
Since I became ill all I seem to do is apologise for my absence, and my unreliability and waste time agonising over small things, and I feel guilty about almost everything. For some reason, I feel guilty for just living my life as best I can. I am fatigued and in pain every day. But… Continue reading Anxiety and apologies and guilt
This illness is so unpredictable. My usual mantra was "Carry on regardless". I physically can't do that anymore. My body won't allow it. Because of this I am always, cancelling, rescheduling even forgetting about plans that I have made with people. Some people understand this and others just or won't get it. I find it… Continue reading Being Unreliable
After I wrote my very first blog I felt liberated and I also felt lighter as if I'd finally offloaded and revealed my "act". I felt like I didn't have to hide things anymore. I even got a few positive comments about how brave I have been and how well-written it was. It made me… Continue reading Emptiness
Being chronically ill has made me grateful for everything I have. Being chronically ill makes you take stock of your life and who and what's in it. I realize that something shit has happened and it can't be changed. So I am grateful for the simple things in life and through that, I have realised… Continue reading Gratitude
Orkney Fibromyalgia Sufferer 