I know that I have touched on this a bit already but I haven't really let go of my "old self" I don't think I ever will. Not while the ghost of her constantly sits on my shoulder whispering in my ear "The old you would have done this...." The old you would have said… Continue reading Sorrow and loss – Grief of my former self
Going on holiday is supposed to be something to look forward to, something to be excited about. For me, this is not the case. Before I became unwell I used to love every trip I went on, including the travelling part. But now a holiday is something I want on one hand but I dread… Continue reading Holidays
Having Fibromyalgia brain fog is almost as debilitating or even more debilitating as the constant pain and chronic fatigue. It is so difficult to describe what it feels like. Brain fog, chronic fatigue and strong pain medication together is a nightmare cocktail, it is like a "Cement Mixer" cocktail, Bailey's and lime juice mixed together which… Continue reading Brain Fog
Every morning when I wake up and every night when I am trying to sleep. Thoughts go round and round in my head. One of the many questions I ask myself is, what do I do that is productive? And each time I have the same answer - Nothing. I still feel this way despite… Continue reading Self – worth
Since I became ill all I seem to do is apologise for my absence, and my unreliability and waste time agonising over small things, and I feel guilty about almost everything. For some reason, I feel guilty for just living my life as best I can. I am fatigued and in pain every day. But… Continue reading Anxiety and apologies and guilt
Orkney Fibromyalgia Sufferer 