Going on holiday is supposed to be something to look forward to, something to be excited about. For me, this is not the case. Before I became unwell I used to love every trip I went on, including the travelling part. But now a holiday is something I want on one hand but I dread… Continue reading Holidays
Having Fibromyalgia brain fog is almost as debilitating or even more debilitating as the constant pain and chronic fatigue. It is so difficult to describe what it feels like. Brain fog, chronic fatigue and strong pain medication together is a nightmare cocktail, it is like a "Cement Mixer" cocktail, Bailey's and lime juice mixed together which… Continue reading Brain Fog
Every morning when I wake up and every night when I am trying to sleep. Thoughts go round and round in my head. One of the many questions I ask myself is, what do I do that is productive? And each time I have the same answer - Nothing. I still feel this way despite… Continue reading Self – worth
Since I became ill all I seem to do is apologise for my absence, and my unreliability and waste time agonising over small things, and I feel guilty about almost everything. For some reason, I feel guilty for just living my life as best I can. I am fatigued and in pain every day. But… Continue reading Anxiety and apologies and guilt
This illness is so unpredictable. My usual mantra was "Carry on regardless". I physically can't do that anymore. My body won't allow it. Because of this I am always, cancelling, rescheduling even forgetting about plans that I have made with people. Some people understand this and others just or won't get it. I find it… Continue reading Being Unreliable
Orkney Fibromyalgia Sufferer 