Today, I Choose to Let Go. I must remind myself every day. “Let them go, Thora, Let them go”. I choose to let go of the people who have already let go of me. “But you love them Thora, yes I do and that’s why I must let them go”. They let go and left… Continue reading Let go
Category: Chronic illness
I feel like not being here
I feel like not being here. But I stay so my loved ones aren’t hurt by my absence. So, not dying just not being here anymore. It’s a comforting thought to have. Going to this place in my mind where I don’t feel pain anymore. Where I no longer have thoughts which take me over.… Continue reading I feel like not being here
We don’t fake being sick we fake being well
The person you see on the left is the image you see when I’m in public. The person on the right is what I look like when I am at home. The person on the right is the person I try so desperately not to be. I lie to myself every time I leave the… Continue reading We don’t fake being sick we fake being well
Am I risking it all? Days of Regret II
In a reflective mood tonight. I am feeling regretful. Have I been hammering my body too hard again? Am I risking my health and “well spell” yet again? Yes, my health has been the best its been for years. But like grains of sand, I can feel it slowly slipping through my fingers. How do… Continue reading Am I risking it all? Days of Regret II
Harnessing my creative brain & my new-found joie de vivre
My creative brain rarely gives me a rest. Over a year of chronic brain fog and a deep depression caused by my multiple chronic health conditions and their symptoms, dulled my brain activity. A dark, heavy, grey fog. A complete paralysis of my senses. Now it has lifted. There’s a break in the clouds. Am… Continue reading Harnessing my creative brain & my new-found joie de vivre
