I feel like not being here

I feel like not being here. But I stay so my loved ones aren’t hurt by my absence. So, not dying just not being here anymore. It’s a comforting thought to have. Going to this place in my mind where I don’t feel pain anymore. Where I no longer have thoughts which take me over. And everyone around me is still happy, unhurt by my lack of presence. Yes, every day I feel like not being here. I no longer want to feel. I’ve felt enough. My cup is empty and I no longer have the desire to fill it.