Each day I feel like the cowardly Lion from the Wizard of Oz (sometimes like the Scarecrow too ” If I only had a brain”) I need courage to get up, to get dressed and to leave the house and to face people. I have to battle this every day. It is HARD and exhausting. Even facing my family is difficult. I feel like I am an exposed wound and sensitive to everything around me. It’s like I have completely lost my bearings and I never know quite how to behave/react.
I constantly feel like I want to be alone but that doesn’t bring me happiness but at the same time I want company from my friends too. It is like being imprisoned in a whirlwind of emotion ALL the time and the whirlwind slows down but it NEVER stops.