I saw this and it made me feel so sad inside. It reminded me of every time I’ve raised my head above the parapet to express my feelings towards someone about my struggles with them and their behaviour. It’s always ended up with me being left out in the cold. It made me vow never to show my vulnerability to someone ever again. It’s reverted me back to that child who wasn’t allowed to speak, had to remain quiet, emotionless, expressionless and just less. Less this less that. It’s no wonder I’ve always at my core felt less than, not enough or too much. Never just quite right. It reminds of the Goldilocks and the Three Bears 🐻 story only I’m the porridge 🥣 I liken myself to a bottle with a never-ending capacity to fill full of feelings, emotions and words. Never felt, never said, to be ignored and abandoned just as I’ve been all my life. Which has resulted in the perpetual abandonment of ones self. Forever frozen in a pool of regret, misery and discomfort. Destined for a lifetime of people-pleasing and making everyone elses comfort a priority over my own. This is not a tale of woe you understand? It’s a dose of my cold, harsh, reality.
Orkney Fibromyalgia Sufferer 
I can relate to this so much.. I am feeling this with my friendships at the moment, and not just one person but quite a number which leads to doubt that the problem is more that I am “less” as you put it… but I’m trying not to listen the voice and let myself grieve that not everyone values friends in the same way. I’m too valuable to waste time chasing others or trying to make myself more/ different/ well enough for others.. has taken some time to get here though!
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Thank you for reading 📖 and leaving me a comment. I was where you are now but for me its like snakes 🐍 ladders. I’ve felt my value many times and believed in my worth but sadly one person who came into my life a couple of years ago made me forget all I’d learned. I’ve reach a point of no return and retreated myself back to feeling less than and I plan to stay there. Sadly its where I feel most comfortable 💜
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