Rocky said: “Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done!”
I didn’t get the result I was hoping for today. But that is OK. I have chosen to remain positive and wait for the right opportunity to present itself.
Of course, I am disappointed. I’ve been left feeling vulnerable and slightly bruised. I was asked to give a presentation in front of three complete strangers, which included being asked questions about my ill health and how it affects my daily life. I find this subject incredibly difficult to talk about without tears rolling down my cheeks. Talking about it in person is just too painful for me. But I’ve dusted myself off, wiped the tears from my cheeks and made a decision not to take this as a rejection but as an opportunity to go out and find something else. Something bigger, something better. Something and somewhere that values my experience, knowledge and skill. That will help me grow and become better at what I currently do. Something that feeds me daily and makes me feel like all this is worthwhile. It’s so easy to feel alone and like I am standing banging my drum in an empty room. I know that I am not alone, there are millions of other people, fighting the same fight. Fighting to be heard, fighting to be understood, fighting to be believed and to be accepted. Being accepted isn’t something I have ever striven for. I am happy to build my own path, and find something that’s in “my wheelhouse”.
Lately, I have felt drawn to lighthouses. They inspire me greatly. Beacons of light in the darkness. Lighthouses have evolved to become a symbol of hope and guidance in the lives of others. That is exactly what I wish to be.
So, I have chosen to use this experience as a stepping stone on my path to the right opportunity, and as many wise women say: “What’s for you, will no go by you” #orkneyfibromyalgiasufferermindfuldays 💜💜💜