“But you don’t look 👀 sick”
You are right. I don’t. I have just arrived home after work. After having no sleep last night I have a full-blown Migraine. This is what people see when they see me in public. This made up, smiley, always a happy person. Bubbly, bouncy, happy go lucky and always filled with fun and laughter.
What they don’t see is me getting after arriving home. Immediately hanging that public version of me in the cupboard. Immediately getting into my PJs and crawling into bed. Nothing to eat, nothing to drink. My boys having to come upstairs to see me for a quick 5 minutes. Then and only then do I fully let go and let my multiple chronic illnesses become me. I let them begin to take charge as soon as I shut my front door behind me. I am literally 2 different people. Public me and Private me. That in itself is exhausting. If those people who say “But you don’t look sick” could see me doing that? Would it make a difference? No, I don’t think so. You don’t have to look sick to be sick. You don’t have to look stupid to be stupid either 🤷♀️💜