I’m not one of those people who have others there for me. I’m one of those people who are there for everyone else. I’m loyal, dependable, trustworthy and empathetic to a fault. Nobody who comes into my life stays. They take what they can for as long as they can until they’ve had enough and leave. I feel like I’m a convenience store. they queue up with their trollies each one leaving with as much of what they need from me. They leave without paying only to return the next day to do it all over again. Whether it be kindness, loyalty, empathy I’ve got it and they want it. Some’s genuine need turns to greed, others don’t really want it they’re just in the business of taking. I make it too easy for them. They repeat their visits until they’ve satisfied their hunger with all of the good qualities I possess. Like King Henry the 8th They gorge on a banquet of empathy, loyalty, dependability, selflessness, trust and kindness. I continually restock my shelves their always full as is the store. People come and go some new faces some regulars until the day I never see them again. I didn’t close my shop so why did they leave? A bigger, better shop around the corner?
Round and round like a carousel. Every day the same until the day it wasn’t. The shelves began to become bare. Nobody was paying so how could I continue to restock? Despite the shelves being bare a few still came to walk around to check. This small group continued to visit the shop until the day they arrived and it was closed.
Despite pouring from my empty cup. Finally, I was empty, I had no more to give. I watch them all move on with their lives as if I never existed. Sometimes I wonder if they ever think of me or remember my kindness. I doubt it. People like that don’t. They just move on to the next supply. No doubt playing the victim with tales of woe as to why I’m no longer in their life. Something about me is I don’t leave people. I’m always the one who’s left behind. People don’t abandon people they love. They abandon the people they were using.
Orkney Fibromyalgia Sufferer 