Abandonment

Currently, I am curled up in my bed with the laptop visiting the small town of self-pity. I do not like to visit this place as it does me NO good whatsoever. But it is almost like an old friend that I have to catch up with every now and again. I am feeling completely abandoned. I feel like I have been dropped by everyone around me. I tried to keep my friendships up as best I could but along the way most people slowly slipped away. My phone has gone quiet and nobody wants to know. You will probably have heard of the 1 in 4 campaign about mental health. I think this should apply to all sorts of chronic illnesses and health problems. Right now I feel like I am the 1 in 4 but nobody is interested in asking me – How are you? I am at a point where I do want to talk about it. I have to talk about it. I can’t hold it in any longer. I feel like I am going to burst. I have my husband. He is always there, and he always knows how I am feeling but he doesn’t know what to do or say. He listens, and I feel lucky to have his support. But it’s just not enough. I know you shouldn’t indulge in self-pity but sometimes you can’t help but go to that place.